Poetry
This is a bonus section I guess. When I started wanting to do a web page way back when the only thing I could think to place on it was my poetry. Poetry for me is an aid to find closure in things. When I finally write how I feel about something it shows that I have accepted it. It is also a way of helping me understand things. Just to warn you most of these are really sad. I won't be putting all of them here otherwise you would be reading forever. So if you like what you read, stay tuned because I will be changing them from time to time.
What I do
I am the bringer of love and compassion,
The keeper of your souls,
I watch you as you sleep and wake you
Just before you land
When your heart is sick
Or your soul on fire
I am there to hold your hand
I keep you clean from all of evil
By any ways and means
And when you hide
I am there inside
To show you what your goals can deem
But when I hurt
When I ache
When my spirit as had all it can take
I look around and I find
Not one shoulder pressed to mine
Many friends I do have
All can make me laugh
But the tears I shed they cannot catch
Grateful am I
For their eyes and ears
But the breaking of my heart
They cannot see or hear
Alone again to do my job
To keep you safe from harm
To watch you sleep
And keep you on the path
Crying, I wait, I ask to above,
"Which breath will be my last?"
Inside Fire
So much happens
All at one time
When it is over you get on with life.
Smile like the Mona Lisa
Give your best Goldie Hawn
Through your shoulders back
Toss your hair
Swallow that bile
That rises in your throat
Like the breath of a fire breathing dragon
Then when all goes numb
The smiles are natural
So is the walk
You'll live again
But
Remember
Fire consumes
Inside
Out.
Shadow
A mystic morning
Moonlight seranade
She smiled
At the mischief she had made
That one dead
This one put away
With the human mind
She loves to play
To reach in and grab
Their tender minds
Killing all thoughts
That were
good
and kind
to watch them wither
on the floor
suck them dry
then leave them there
to die.
Become
The fear and confusion I feel
Are not mine
But
The babe I was
The pain and loathing I feel
Are not mine
But
The child I was
The self pity and sadness I feel
Are not mine
But
The teenager I was
The hate and anger I feel
Are not mine
But
The adult I am
The love and compassion I feel
Are mine
And
The woman I have become
To Mother
I want to love you
I need to love you
To give you the respect you deserve
But your manipulating and co-dependence
Suffocates me
Like an ill-fitted glove
Pinching my spirit
And squeezing my soul
So please back up and look again
I'm tired of living my life your way
Did it work for you?
I'm not you daughter anymore
I'm trying to be your friend.
Attic Light
Leave the light on in the attic
For I now I'm coming home
I don't know how long I'll be
Or how the road will take me
Leave the light on in the attic
So I'll know I've made it home
My journey has been long
Down these ever winding roads
The ups and downs of life
Have left my soul feeling cold
Longing for the warmth of home
So leave the light on in the attic
So I know I've made it home
